"A letter to my IshQ"

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Dear IshQ

It was wonderful feeling ever I met you for very first time, gradually I fell in love with you, I Experienced both the best and the worst feelings with you,  you at the point of time made me feel that you are only there for me, but at the second time you made me realised that falling in love with you was biggest mistake of my life,
I'm still recovering from the pain you gave me, but in this meantime I learned a lot beinging with you, Things which I did shouldn't be done, The Time I compromised my self respect and the moments where I would have changed my decision,
No doubt we have created unforgettable memories but at last it became forgettable as it become a curse for me to be with you,  I suffer a lot for my stupid action and emotions, My heart still pinched me all the time, it was really tough time that I finally asked you to leave  or left you with an excuse which I never had however I did it but not happily,
‌I don't know if I ever be able to love someone because I loved you with all my strength and maybe I won't able to love someone Again,  but that's fine , at least I'm out of from poisonous and fake relationship,
Things learned, I'll implement for the rest of my life so that I won't be repeating the same  stupid mistake which I made earlier and used to do, I miss you but don't want you back in my life anymore,
I still remember that class room, late night conversations over the call, last meeting and all beautiful memories that we had together, Hope you find someone better at least better than me, but never make someone realise that it's very hard to love someone badly,  I don't love you anymore, I'm moving on and surely Move on one day, If God Wills it, NEVER wanted to say goodbye but sorry to say, Have a great life and yes Goodbye!
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